You have done nothing but shit talk me. So you say you do not care. When you are the one who posts about me first. Up until this point, I have done nothing to you. I have stopped talking to you. Given you the space you wanted. All that jazz. In hopes we could be friends one day. I try to move on and start talking to someone else whom I do like a lot and you start talking shit. Which anons leave in my ask box. Like I have said a million times, I fucked up in our relationship. I did everything wrong. I ran and was shit. You saying all that is true. But I never once threatened your reputation or any shit like that. And calling my tattoos shitty and throwing all that in my face, really? Come on now. Thats low. Everything you said to degrade me more than I have degraded myself is low. You apparently care, you wouldn’t post the shit you do if you didn’t. Like I care. I do. I will always check up on you cause no matter how shitty I was, I loved you. But I know I was the shitty one. I told you that millions of times. Right now, I am trying to get past the shitty me and date this guy I like a lot. Idk why you are getting so mad at that. Other than I couldn’t do it for you, which I admitted I couldn’t do it with you. 

This is all ridiculous. Why can’t we just talk like adults?

You start dating another girl right after we break up.
Did I get mad? Nope. More power to you. Be happy.
I was not the girl for you.

You block me and talk shit on me because I am trying to be happy.
I am sorry we didn’t work out.
And I did give excuses and run from you.
I was not happy with you. I was not making you happy.

Stop trying to act like a hard ass. It is not cute.
Be a man and actually be happy that I am trying to move on.

I find it hilarious you are mad and we are broken up and you seem happier than you were with me.
Apparently you will leave me in tears. Oh please. Grow up and stop hating the fact that I am trying to move on and grow.

I loved you. Always will. But I was not happy. I was not making you happy. I didn’t want to fix our mess. My bad, I am sorry.

You are going on a date.
On what would have been one of our anniversaries.
Ouch =’[

Can I please just forget you and what we had already? I am tired of hurting. 

These niggas freakin out about my bridge seem to forget that piercings swell and they are supposed to have longer bars until healed. Yes it looks shallow. But when I get a shorter bar in it, it will look right.

fucktards

• Tattoo for my mom <3
• Nails done and I do mean acrylics 
• Hair color/possible extensions
• Buy Varsity jacket
• Buy maybe 1/2 oz of some loud

So my mom did my taxes and I should be getting them direct deposited into my bank account in about 14 days. I should be getting right around $900 :D 

$400 of which I automatically have to give her. To pay back money I owe her. Which really means to pay her fines. But whatever.

I know for sure I am getting a new tattoo. And I have been having trouble trying to decide which one I want to get.
At first I thought I should go ahead and get my “Avada Kedavra” tramp stamp, which would be black and bright green letters with a spooky green smokey background with snakes and shit. I will get this one another day.
Then I thought to get my R2Pikachu. But again it didn’t seem fitting to get it right now.
I also thought to get my Dark Mark re-done. (To any of my followers who didn’t know, I used to have a Dark Mark. Sadly all the ink pushed out =\). Again not this time.
I have come to the decision to get a tattoo dedicated to my mother. Think Sailor Jerry. You know a heart with a banner that says “Mom”. That is the concept, but I have to put a twist on it. I want a anatomically correct heart (ya know vessels and such) with a Cervical Cancer (the bright blue one) ribbon wrapping around it as a banner. The banner will say “Mommy” instead of “Mom” cause I call her mommy lol. And sitting on top of the heart, I want a black widow spider. Maybe have some webs around it. Now you may think it weird of me to put a poisonous spider on a “Mom” tattoo, but you would have to know my mom. First, I have to say my mother is my best friend, my everything. Yes I rant about her constantly, but she is still the person who gave me life and a reason to live my life the way I want. I do not want to turn out like her. Not saying she is a bad person, meaning I do not want to have to go through the things she has. I do not want to follow in the foot steps of hurt she has gone through.  She survived cervical cancer. My mother is a survivor. So hence why I want the ribbon. I was her miracle. She had a miscarriage before me and was on BC when she got preggo with me. The anatomical heart represents the life she gave me, the miracle life that I am and that I have because of her strength.  My banner reads “Mommy” for a child’s complete devotion to their mother. Look in a child’s eyes when they see their mother for the first time in a while or just the general look of awe and complete love they have for a mother. Children call them “mommy” as their term of endearment and it gets less and less adoring as a child grows up. They shorten it up as their patience for their parent gets smaller. You normally only see a teenager call their mother “Mommy” when they want something or are trying to get away with something. No matter how old I get, my mother will always be “Mommy” to me. Now to explain the black widow lol. My mother got her first tattoo when I was about 5 or 6 years old. It was of a black widow on her arm. At that moment, I decided I wanted tattoos. I wanted to be cool like my mommy. In fact, I wanted my first tattoo to be just like hers. So here you go Momma, I am finally getting a tattoo like you (other than the matching one we got for my first tattoo lol). It is also because my mom has always called herself a black widow. Which means she kills and eats her husbands. Suits her lol. I cannot wait to get this tattoo. It honestly has to be the one with the most meaning. 

After the tattoo costs, I plan to dye my hair. I want red with bleach blonde highlights. Its about damn time we see a redheaded Nikki. Its been 3 years.

So me and my bf are talking about how my right eye hurts and one of my friends said he missed the target. And he tells me that I can’t kill him because I can’t see >.>

Then this happens

All I fucking wanted today was to see my boyfriend and cuddle with him. But I can’t have that. Nope. Fuck everything. I hate everything. I hate people. Fuck everyone right now. 

jorjorbinks:

ONE - Spell your name without vowels: Nkk.

TWO - Are you single?: Happily taken.

THREE - Whats your favorite number?: 13.

FOUR - What color do you wear most?: Black or grey.

FIVE - Least favorite color(s)?: Yellow, brown, orange.

SIX - Favorite sweet?: Chocolate.

SEVEN - What do you smoke?: Marlboro menthols and weed.

EIGHT - Are you happy with your life right now?: Most of it is great.

NINE - Anyone ever said you resemble a celebrity?: Abby from NCIS.

TEN - What is your favorite class in school?: English or Criminal Justice.

TWELVE - How do you make money?: I don’t right now.

THIRTEEN - Who is your best friend?: Linda Campanelli. 

FOURTEEN - Where do you go to school?: Don’t.

FIFTEEN - Are you outgoing?: Sometimes.

SIXTEEN - One word to describe you?: Unique.

SEVENTEEN - Favorite pair of shoes?: My silver flats.

EIGHTEEN - Do you own big sunglasses? Aviators.

NINETEEN - Where do you wish you were right now? With Pablo.

TWENTY - What should you be doing right now?: Leaving for church.

TWENTY ONE - Do you have a crush on anyone right now?: On my boyfriend yes. 

HONEST SECTION:

Honestly, what’s on your mind right now?: How much I do not want to see my ex when I go to get my stuff this weekend.

Honestly, what are you doing right now?: This survey.

Honestly, have you done something bad today?: Nope.

Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone?: Pablo.

Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?: Nope.

Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time?: The fact that people are mean and hateful to others.

Honestly, do you bite your nails?: Yeah.

Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?: He just left and I wanna see him already.

Honestly, are you keeping a big secret right now?: Nope.

Honestly, do you have a friend you don’t actually like?: No.

THE CANS:

Can you blow a bubble?: Yes.

Can you dance?: Like a white girl.

Can you do a cart wheel?: If I try.

Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth?: Yep.

Can you whistle?: Yeah.

Can you wiggle your ears?: Yes.

Can you wiggle your nose?: Nope.

Can you roll your tongue?: I can roll my “r”s.

Can you make a clover with your tongue?: Yep.

ANGER SECTION:

What do you do when you’re mad?: Get very quiet or I cry and hit stuff.

What’s the worst thing you’ve done when you were mad?: Other than nearly breaking my hand.

Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?: Yup.

CRYING SECTION:

Ever really cried your heart out?: Plenty.

Ever cried yourself to sleep?: Yes.

Ever cried on your friend’s shoulder?: Yep.

Ever cried over the same sex?: Yup.

Do you cry when you get an injury?: Depends on the injury.

Do certain songs make you cry?: Yeah.

Do certain movies make you cry?: Yeah.

Ever cried from reading a book?: Harry Potter >.>

HAPPY SECTION:

Are you usually a happy person?: Generally, I try to be.

What makes you the happiest?: Things that make me nerd out or my friends and boyfriend.

Does being with your friends make you happy?: Mhmm

Do you believe in yourself?: Sometimes.

Do you wish you were happier?: Somtimes.

Is being happy overrated?: Not at all.

Can music make you happy?: Yes.

LOVE SECTION:

How many times have you had your heart broken?: Oh goodness lol.

Have you ever loved someone so much that you’d die for them?: Yeah.

Has anyone besides your friends and family ever said ‘I love you’?: Yes.

HATE SECTION:

Do you actually hate anyone?: Yeah.

Have you ever been on a hit list?: I don’t really care.

Are you a mean bully?: If I want to be lol.

Do you hate George Bush?: UGH!

SELF ESTEEM SECTION:

Is your self-esteem extremely low?: Sometimes.

Do you think you’re good looking?: Somewhat.

Do you wish you could be someone else?: Nope.

LOOK AT ME:

What is your current hair color?: Black.

What is your eye color?: Blue.

What is your skin tone?: Pale.

Current piercings?: Nine.

Have any tattoos?: Nine.

Straight hair or curly?: Naturally curly, but I like it straight.

CURRENTLY WEARING:

What shirt are you wearing?: My TKE shirt that a friend gave, R.I.P. Bobby <3

Necklace(s)?: Deathly Hallows necklace.

Shoes?: Socks.

HAVE YOU EVER:

Hugged someone?: Yeah.

Been on the phone until the sun came up?: Yeah.

Laughed so hard you peed in your pants?: Hahahahaha yes.

Laughed so hard you cried?: All the time.

Got in a fight with someone?: Yeah.

THE LAST:

Person you talked to in person?: My mom.

Person you talked to online?: Uh Jon.

Person you hugged?: Pablo.

  RANDOM:

Do you like surveys?: Sometimes.

Do you get along with your parents?: Sometimes.

Do you have mental breakdowns?: Sometimes..

CURRENT:

Current mood: Missing my love.

Current music: None.

Current hair style: In a ponytail.

Current thing I ought to be doing: Eating.

Current windows open: Facebook, Tumblr, Youtube.

Current desktop picture: Starry Night Hogwarts.

THE DIDS:

Did you ever get into a fist fight in school?: Yeah lol.

Did you ever run away from home?: Nope.

Did you ever want to be a doctor?: No.

Did you ever want to be a fire fighter?: No.

THE DO’S:

Do you know how to swim?: Yes.

Do you like roller coasters?: Mhmm.

Do you own a bike?: Mine got stolen thanks to a fucking moron.

Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows?: No.

THE DOES:

Does hair loss run in your family at all?: Yep.

Does your car get good gas mileage?: No car.

Does your family have family picnics?: No.

THE HAVES:

Have you ever been on a plane?: Yes.

Have you ever been to the ocean?: Yes.

Have you ever painted your nails?: Yes, all the time.

THE HOWS:

How tall are you?:  5’7”.

How much money do you have on you right now?: Zero.

THE LASTS:

Last person you hung out with?: Pablo.

Last thing someone said to you?: I will give you the tv in a minute.

Last thing you said out loud?: Okie.

THE WHATS:

What are you listening to?: Law and Order SVU.

What is the weather outside?: Fucking cold.

What radio station do you listen to?: I hate the radio.

What was the last restaurant you ate at?: Uh I don’t remember right now.

What was the last thing you had to drink?: Coke.

What was the last movie you watched?: Doomsday.